Sometimes people say things so subtle and slight that just touch your heart and hit you like a bucket of rocks. I can’t believe this is how it’s going to be next year. And I can’t believe I’m in the position that I’m in right now. I’ve grown and learned so much this year about myself, but I have yet to find something that phases me. Why don’t I let myself feel? What’s stopping me from feeling these things? Why am I so afraid? How can I make it stop?
Who am I kidding? I have changed. And I’m so so proud of myself.
Haven’t tumbled or really vented in a while hmm. I guess I’ll start with spring semester and how much I love it. I remember when people used to tell me that they picked their major based on classes that they actually enjoyed waking up for. I never really understood what they meant since I couldn’t find any class that I actually enjoyed but I finally see what they’re talking about and it’s great. I do love my classes this semester and love what I’m getting myself into. Aside from that, there’s been some big event or another every weekend from sylly week, to THON prep, to THON itself, state pattys, and now spring break. And then after break there’s Infusion to look forward to, formal, blue and white weekend, and then just like that, in the blink of an eye, my freshman year will be over. Brb crying. Being a freshman in college, similar to being a senior in high school, might just be as good as it ever gets and I don’t want to be anything else but a freshman.
“Trust me, gyps, these are the moments you want to enjoy and cherish for the rest of your life.”
And then there’s you. No one really knows why I’m still sticking around..I don’t even know why I’m still with you. But you’re something else. And whatever it is, it sure is one hell of a rollercoaster.